Perhaps

Perhaps,
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;

Yet when I am alone,
I question-Just where I belong.

I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare

Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?

Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,

But will my search bring to me the meaning over time?
Or
perhaps,
The answer is not to find 'the' meaning,
but to give it one.

Am trying. . . Rather realizing....

A Birthday Souvenir

It has been a long time, since
I am fancying the script of my being.

There are things I'd like to say
to you my love on this amazing day:

Your affection has been like a good cocaine,
I forget the world around, & rest deep in your eyes.

So tranquil – is your presence,
You make me the happiest man in existence.

When yu sleep on my shoulder, when yu kiss my cheek
I feel so complete, so alive.

I know, its many hurdles we've had to overcome
I know, how in every walk of life, we have strode as one,

Bigger tribulations may lie ahead,
but together, we’ll make it comfortable instead.

We've endured our share of pain,
but mutually we have so much to gain.

I'll be there forever for you - my love is true.
The person beside me would surely be you.

With Lots and Lots of Pure Love,
Yours and only yours:

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A Tribute …

Amidst the massive banyan trees;
winds blew - crosswise the pretty parish.
You knew as you stood by the red-sands,
that you had discovered our shelter- our lives.
You perceived the scent of summers,
through the antiseptic breeze.
You heard the years of laughter,
inside the rustic doors.
You looked past time
to perceive unrestrained charm.

You fought against the atrocities of social past
with a refining hand and a classic grace.But rarely have we dwelt upon the nobleinfluence that was your life.

Memories …
they flow like clouds in the sky,

Walking with you to the river-side,
then playing in water for hours.
Sitting with you at the Banyan-base,and the debating on contemporary philosophies.

The stories that you tell of your five comrades.
and how we would listen to you nights along.
How we used to scroll into the blankets beneath your bed,attend to your blessings and catch a nap in between. These reminiscences are all ours
They are heavy in sight and sound in elegance.
They are your life and our childhood.
They are your accomplishments and our inheritance.
They are -who you were- and how we have become.

Its only been a few days,
but, one can't change facts.
And as a beloved said;
“Some things are out of our control”;
Its gods wish - the divinity’s call

We can still feel that warmth rising,
Cloaking us in humid comfort;
The flowers that has grown from you,
makes you eternal
Take Care…Heavens await you!
Dedicated to our Grandma

Thank You!

I know the world around me...
I am used to talk to them!

They know it all...

They know...

when I’go crazy
When I’Feel lonely,
when I'miss smone

They will take care of me..

Thank you ..
for giving me a few sweet dreams.....
and... my dreams dont die... untill they are fullfilled.....

:(

Life is making me dance…
To tunes which seem awfully strange to me.

And am a mere player… am to dance…
I’ll…with valor and passion…

I have dreams… n hopes….
and my dreams die...only when they are fullfiled....

Am just a wishful soul… and... have a good heart!...

I will dance… I promise….!

I'll be back in sm weeks....

hi frends...

sorry for that long delay....
I'll be back in a few days...[;)]

Hmmm...

There is sun...

and there are clouds...

its raining..

and sun's shining too ...

I donno whats happening..

but there is smthing...

that'll persist...

and the other

will dislodge!

but am optimistic..

and waiting...

my eyes are expecting..

rather hoping against hope....

that - the "someone" - will cm and share...

my - otherwise empty- umbrella!

....... am waiting!!.. peacefully... not quite!

Dated:23/07/2007

I remember... That evening!

It was so cool.. and calm
as breeze blushed past the grass lands...
and she sat by my side...
with grief agonizing ...

Flooded eyes... drooping relentlessly!

She tried wiping off hear tears failingly!
with her damp hands.

Words failed her...
desparate - she was!

And I laid beside her...
helplessly - failing to console...

still she sat by me.
with pain and remorse!

And I lay beside her...
cold, damp and frozen...
beneath the - so called - earth!


Dated: 20/01/2005

Dreams and Life...

Memories of life..

they rarely reach the sea...
beneath the bare swept surface dirt...
Lie dreams that turn us cold.

The best that we can do is try
To savor what is served,
love the lust of a sinking sun
and make much of precision.

Dreams that has blossomed will often shed...
But am to try....

bye bye!!!....
my dreams await me!!!

26/06/2007

Magical Words.....

I could have never imagined,
that words can be this wonderful,
- this magical…
for that’s how we met.
Just two intangible spirits
who found good mates
through the beautiful mind's eyes.

Love towards someone
is not as simple as mere yes/no.
It takes years
to refine its grace..

Neither can I expect u – soon - to love me!
Nor are my own feelings clear….
But there is some passion in between

I can feel you… !

Come to me…
with an open mind and released heart!
And wait for the time to gift the joys of life.
and perhaps .. some day.. a bit of love!!!

Be careful…
‘coz what you are holding is my heart!!!

04/072007

Its Painful... but then...

The pain will remain with me;

I’ll stand the heart… I have them all.

I am …. here itself… am not going anywhere….

My past will not depart from me!wound.. it’ll never heal.

your eyes, your

I have a treasure… in my dreams…

I’ll live with them…!!!

May be am right… in that…

you are not my dream!

Its painful… but then… I have to...

GOOD BYE!

24/06/2007

. . . Allow Me to Dream

Life is a promise,
not mere dream.
But - its dreams that foster promises.
… Allow Me to Dream!

There are dreams,
where there are emotions,
and promises of fulfillment,
. . .in the cradles of future.

There are dreams of hope,
where there are mishaps,
and promises of good luck.
. . .the blessings from Gods.

There are dreams of joy,
where there are sorrows,
and promises of prayers
. . .to do away with the obscurities.

There is a dream of love,
where there is hatred,
and a promise of spring
with blossoms of pure love.

Dreams are miracles.
They come true with time.
There is a promise in every dream.

Atleast . . . allow me to dream!

15/06/2007

My 143 Red Roses

You are my world!
none else have made me feel this empty!
Life without you… is incomplete
I miss you… dearly!
I have made a habit of thinking of you,
nights and days apart!

My heart is full… and heavy…
It can no longer keep this riddle tight!
I am falling apart…
Scared… if am actually… in love with u!

Okey… I admit…I am!
It has been long since…
I have saved these 143 red roses for U.

Tell me….
Can I gift you my life?

The verve is calling...
Its time… we move hand in hand!
One soul ... one heart!

Love you .... dear!....

Yours and only yours....

02/06/2007

We two...

At times.... I try stitching words...
amassing inspiration from the unknown self!

Rarely – between,
Words flow – on its own!

And it so happened... on a summer desk!

Weighing up the time, I needed to kill,
as I broke into an arm chair!

I was pleasantly surprised to find you beside!

Perhaps... It was just an illusion!
Day dreamer.... heheee... am called!

You were smiling – a gorgeous smile!
It was so serene – just we two!

And the wheels of time grumbled along...
harmonious...and mellow!

Just for a moment... I thought...
Perhaps its time to break the silence!

But words have an awkward habit!
They’ll spoil the moment's charm!

So I let it remain... a quixotic thought!
We are strangers... and will stay - forever!
Connected ... just by these few words...
and... those buried feelings within!

27/05/2007

Your heart is my wonderland!

In the calmness of darkness,
with closed – silent eyes,
I sit… sometimes…
as if tranquilized…

Peace… no … it’s never to be!

My thoughts disturb me…
they fly… high – wild!

And I wonder how,
every time…
they find that unique dimension!
The one that reaches your spirit!
where – as if – they belong.

Your heart is my wonderland…
The shelter of my dreams!

Addicted… am I,
in exploring u…
Like a vicious sailor
searching for the mystery
behind the wonder – that’s u!

I Know am being conquered…
Let it be!

At least am finding bliss
in conceding myself to u!

18/05/07

I... The Narcissist!

Too much into myself…
I hav been!

Tried realizing me in All living things I see…
Searched a bit for the answer to the eternal question!
Who am I???.. n why am I like this…
and answered myself… unreasonably…
I am what I am... n only I can b myself…!

Too much to myself…
I have been!

I have never succeeded in my life…
‘Coz… I have never failed…
Lucky are those who fail…
For they can taste success… sweet!

I envy… all those who know life…
All those who have “lived”!
Im unfortunate enough!
Living dead…

Too much to myself…!

16/05/2007

The Language of silence...

The language of silence,
is no mere myth!
It’s the tuning of spirits,
it’s the resonance of souls!

There are times...
when silence speaks volumes!
My love- I want u to understand…
its not just words that speak!

I’ll never tell u…
hw much I love u!
I can just hope…
that my silence conveys it to u!

For, there will b a time…
when I will not have words to spare!
Just scenic silence…
and u can still hear me!

08/05/2007

Eternal Ecstasy

She opened her eyes,
meekly calmly!

It was like... the fierce sunshine...
pressing thru the window panes...
distressed her... awake...
A new beginning!

All she could feel,
was reprieve...
from sm prior fleshy pain!

Then the world opened to her,
the souvenir of joy!...
wrapped in silky-soft-white cloth!

She broke into tears..
tears of joy!.. tears of being!
For the moment! All pains refused her...
as she took the gods gift in her arms!
gently caressed!...

Tears still rolled down her cheeks!
face lit up... with divine grace!
“mother’... she is reborn to b!
and this is eternal ecstasy!

Courtesy: Someone Special!

13/05/2007(Mothers day)

Just for “U”

Frantic, lazy, skeptical… whatever u call me,
I am… what I am…
I cannot fit in2 ur shoes…
I’ll fail… I’ll die!

I did never come to u…
for the delight of peripheral things!
I liked u deeper within…
I loved the lovliness inside of u!

I don’t regret having met u…
The “u” I love… the “u” I cherish…
Will remain with me… as a sweet dream!
My souls delight!

I tried breaking the walls between us…
Just to discover that v wer pole's apart...!
I’ll never search for u…
But, will surely miss u… dear!

Once I thought… I can’t live without u!
But nw you hav taught me hw to!
And am not a coward… I’ll not intoxicate myself.
Nor will I try forgetting u!

This… This… is my moment of joy!!.. My life!!
Can’t waste it for the silly reason … “u”!
Its.. Damn! High time to realize that…
I can’t b with u!!

10/05/2007