Thank You!

I know the world around me...
I am used to talk to them!

They know it all...

They know...

when I’go crazy
When I’Feel lonely,
when I'miss smone

They will take care of me..

Thank you ..
for giving me a few sweet dreams.....
and... my dreams dont die... untill they are fullfilled.....

:(

Life is making me dance…
To tunes which seem awfully strange to me.

And am a mere player… am to dance…
I’ll…with valor and passion…

I have dreams… n hopes….
and my dreams die...only when they are fullfiled....

Am just a wishful soul… and... have a good heart!...

I will dance… I promise….!

I'll be back in sm weeks....

hi frends...

sorry for that long delay....
I'll be back in a few days...[;)]

Hmmm...

There is sun...

and there are clouds...

its raining..

and sun's shining too ...

I donno whats happening..

but there is smthing...

that'll persist...

and the other

will dislodge!

but am optimistic..

and waiting...

my eyes are expecting..

rather hoping against hope....

that - the "someone" - will cm and share...

my - otherwise empty- umbrella!

....... am waiting!!.. peacefully... not quite!

Dated:23/07/2007

I remember... That evening!

It was so cool.. and calm
as breeze blushed past the grass lands...
and she sat by my side...
with grief agonizing ...

Flooded eyes... drooping relentlessly!

She tried wiping off hear tears failingly!
with her damp hands.

Words failed her...
desparate - she was!

And I laid beside her...
helplessly - failing to console...

still she sat by me.
with pain and remorse!

And I lay beside her...
cold, damp and frozen...
beneath the - so called - earth!


Dated: 20/01/2005

Dreams and Life...

Memories of life..

they rarely reach the sea...
beneath the bare swept surface dirt...
Lie dreams that turn us cold.

The best that we can do is try
To savor what is served,
love the lust of a sinking sun
and make much of precision.

Dreams that has blossomed will often shed...
But am to try....

bye bye!!!....
my dreams await me!!!

26/06/2007

Magical Words.....

I could have never imagined,
that words can be this wonderful,
- this magical…
for that’s how we met.
Just two intangible spirits
who found good mates
through the beautiful mind's eyes.

Love towards someone
is not as simple as mere yes/no.
It takes years
to refine its grace..

Neither can I expect u – soon - to love me!
Nor are my own feelings clear….
But there is some passion in between

I can feel you… !

Come to me…
with an open mind and released heart!
And wait for the time to gift the joys of life.
and perhaps .. some day.. a bit of love!!!

Be careful…
‘coz what you are holding is my heart!!!

04/072007

Its Painful... but then...

The pain will remain with me;

I’ll stand the heart… I have them all.

I am …. here itself… am not going anywhere….

My past will not depart from me!wound.. it’ll never heal.

your eyes, your

I have a treasure… in my dreams…

I’ll live with them…!!!

May be am right… in that…

you are not my dream!

Its painful… but then… I have to...

GOOD BYE!

24/06/2007

. . . Allow Me to Dream

Life is a promise,
not mere dream.
But - its dreams that foster promises.
… Allow Me to Dream!

There are dreams,
where there are emotions,
and promises of fulfillment,
. . .in the cradles of future.

There are dreams of hope,
where there are mishaps,
and promises of good luck.
. . .the blessings from Gods.

There are dreams of joy,
where there are sorrows,
and promises of prayers
. . .to do away with the obscurities.

There is a dream of love,
where there is hatred,
and a promise of spring
with blossoms of pure love.

Dreams are miracles.
They come true with time.
There is a promise in every dream.

Atleast . . . allow me to dream!

15/06/2007

My 143 Red Roses

You are my world!
none else have made me feel this empty!
Life without you… is incomplete
I miss you… dearly!
I have made a habit of thinking of you,
nights and days apart!

My heart is full… and heavy…
It can no longer keep this riddle tight!
I am falling apart…
Scared… if am actually… in love with u!

Okey… I admit…I am!
It has been long since…
I have saved these 143 red roses for U.

Tell me….
Can I gift you my life?

The verve is calling...
Its time… we move hand in hand!
One soul ... one heart!

Love you .... dear!....

Yours and only yours....

02/06/2007

We two...

At times.... I try stitching words...
amassing inspiration from the unknown self!

Rarely – between,
Words flow – on its own!

And it so happened... on a summer desk!

Weighing up the time, I needed to kill,
as I broke into an arm chair!

I was pleasantly surprised to find you beside!

Perhaps... It was just an illusion!
Day dreamer.... heheee... am called!

You were smiling – a gorgeous smile!
It was so serene – just we two!

And the wheels of time grumbled along...
harmonious...and mellow!

Just for a moment... I thought...
Perhaps its time to break the silence!

But words have an awkward habit!
They’ll spoil the moment's charm!

So I let it remain... a quixotic thought!
We are strangers... and will stay - forever!
Connected ... just by these few words...
and... those buried feelings within!

27/05/2007

Your heart is my wonderland!

In the calmness of darkness,
with closed – silent eyes,
I sit… sometimes…
as if tranquilized…

Peace… no … it’s never to be!

My thoughts disturb me…
they fly… high – wild!

And I wonder how,
every time…
they find that unique dimension!
The one that reaches your spirit!
where – as if – they belong.

Your heart is my wonderland…
The shelter of my dreams!

Addicted… am I,
in exploring u…
Like a vicious sailor
searching for the mystery
behind the wonder – that’s u!

I Know am being conquered…
Let it be!

At least am finding bliss
in conceding myself to u!

18/05/07

I... The Narcissist!

Too much into myself…
I hav been!

Tried realizing me in All living things I see…
Searched a bit for the answer to the eternal question!
Who am I???.. n why am I like this…
and answered myself… unreasonably…
I am what I am... n only I can b myself…!

Too much to myself…
I have been!

I have never succeeded in my life…
‘Coz… I have never failed…
Lucky are those who fail…
For they can taste success… sweet!

I envy… all those who know life…
All those who have “lived”!
Im unfortunate enough!
Living dead…

Too much to myself…!

16/05/2007

The Language of silence...

The language of silence,
is no mere myth!
It’s the tuning of spirits,
it’s the resonance of souls!

There are times...
when silence speaks volumes!
My love- I want u to understand…
its not just words that speak!

I’ll never tell u…
hw much I love u!
I can just hope…
that my silence conveys it to u!

For, there will b a time…
when I will not have words to spare!
Just scenic silence…
and u can still hear me!

08/05/2007

Eternal Ecstasy

She opened her eyes,
meekly calmly!

It was like... the fierce sunshine...
pressing thru the window panes...
distressed her... awake...
A new beginning!

All she could feel,
was reprieve...
from sm prior fleshy pain!

Then the world opened to her,
the souvenir of joy!...
wrapped in silky-soft-white cloth!

She broke into tears..
tears of joy!.. tears of being!
For the moment! All pains refused her...
as she took the gods gift in her arms!
gently caressed!...

Tears still rolled down her cheeks!
face lit up... with divine grace!
“mother’... she is reborn to b!
and this is eternal ecstasy!

Courtesy: Someone Special!

13/05/2007(Mothers day)

Just for “U”

Frantic, lazy, skeptical… whatever u call me,
I am… what I am…
I cannot fit in2 ur shoes…
I’ll fail… I’ll die!

I did never come to u…
for the delight of peripheral things!
I liked u deeper within…
I loved the lovliness inside of u!

I don’t regret having met u…
The “u” I love… the “u” I cherish…
Will remain with me… as a sweet dream!
My souls delight!

I tried breaking the walls between us…
Just to discover that v wer pole's apart...!
I’ll never search for u…
But, will surely miss u… dear!

Once I thought… I can’t live without u!
But nw you hav taught me hw to!
And am not a coward… I’ll not intoxicate myself.
Nor will I try forgetting u!

This… This… is my moment of joy!!.. My life!!
Can’t waste it for the silly reason … “u”!
Its.. Damn! High time to realize that…
I can’t b with u!!

10/05/2007

Rhythm of Life…

Life… as if, awe,
Wings stretch long…
Target, to touch the horizon…
It flies and flutters along…
Till its weary wings set blaze…

Life has long seasons adorn…
Spring, being the foremost as a child…
Sparkling and blooming with innocence.
“Beautiful”- its quintessence.

Then the nimbus clutters along,
Sprinkling drops of glory, like a song…
And in its melody the meadows cheer up
from their deep melancholy.

And.. The winter moon arises.
Sets the world in cold hibernation…
The Fog and dampness ... start taking over…
and snow-peaks grow their Santa-beards…

Then the beast of all seasons…
Summer, fiery and ferocious.
Life… at once sinks to gloom
And it is destined to doom…

The vicious circle takes its course…
May the world… the Earth,
sink in the flow of time…
Soul and heart never retires…
Perennial …. Perpetual….Persistent

Each time with a new base,
and a new background,
Same soul respires… new bounds en-bound…

Rhythm of life is here,
with lots of joys near…
“live” ur life… as if u r living,
Live Strong…

12/3/2004

Voices…

I have a crowd within me…
They speak, they sing…
They cry, they howl…
And I hear them all…

Silently, I do…

They kill my dreams...within my dreams…
They make my heart more prudent than my mind…
And I never realize what they mean to…

Sometimes… I hate silence…
Coz, my silence is too strident…
Its noisy... I can’t abide…
And they seldom obey me…

I tried, I tried, I tried…
I can’t conquer their kingdom…
They r growing deafening…
&
Am afraid… am killing myself…

15/04/2007

For I Know… U r Mine…

My thoughts, my dreams are all u…
For, I love spending time… knowing u

Irresponsible and absent minded … I am… I know…
For, I don’t have enough minds to be…

I await long hours, to spend a few minutes with you…
For, those seem far more prized to me…

I am incomplete… I like being…
For, I realize … it’s in u… my completeness…

Afflictions seem no more so…
For, it’s all ‘coz of u…

I am ur hope, ur wish, I know…
For, I can hold your hands – tight – always…

And I can never deceive u…
For, I love u…

I relish being reckless and out of mind…
For, I know… u r mine…

06/04/2007

Alone…

Those doused eyes…. Uneasy…
A miserable soul…. Thirsty for affection, care….
Those beliefs… traumatized …
Was I alone??.... Sometimes!!!

Existence … so restless…
Those moments seemed protracted …
Time, as if, was eroding away my life…
Was I alone??... Sometimes!!!

Chained, was I … in my own thoughts…
Broke … several times… n broken still more…
Reborn a thousand times... each broken dreams apiece…
Was I alone??... Sometimes!!!

Did all what others wanted me to do…
Cherished… giving more than what they expected from me…
And failed…. dearly... to understand… myself…
Was I alone??... Sometimes!!!

Wandering into unknown dark waters…
and … roads… closed and opened… kept roving…
Days and nights are my “factual” friends…
Was I alone??... Sometimes!!!

Life is too extensive… and there is a long way to go…
Tired legs are too early to have… and someone intimate… just virtual …
Hopefully, am not alone… always! I have myself… with me…
my reflection… my god… around me...
It’s just a substance of realization…

Wish… I could get through…
Alone??... Am I and am never!!!

15/2/2007

***I Am...***

The distressed, desperate, sore human existance........ am I??

Cynical Chemistry, Meta Physics and a burst of thoughts........ am I??

The Flow of Mental Fluids, a walking potrait........ am I??

love, affection........am I??Peace Prosperity........am I??

Realizations........am I??Success and Failiures........am I??

Did I die a million times within myself........??

And the silver - lining...did i see........??

A Myth........ am I???A Mystry......... am I???

The Horizon........ am I??The Phoenix ........ am I???

The Past, the Present, the Future........ am I???

Life, death & soul ........ am I???

I Am... I Am... I Am...

28/12/2006

Knowing u…

When divinity asked me…

What could be the greatest gift... I could ever give you???!

I jus whispered... u have already...
The greatest gift of all….
the gift of knowing you.

In troubled waters, in awful times…
Sad moments, grief, or even niggles,
When plans go dire..
Things don’t just turn out.

Around you in ur virtual world..

In the air that surrounds you…
and in ur shadows…

I’ll b der!
And I’ll do my part…

The burdens are there to ease off…
Tears are there to be desiccated …,
Sorrows and pains… will condense
And… hope to c u persist cheerful … as yet!

In the end I would be happy
for am not… as indebted as I was…
It's a small worth to pay
for the gift of knowing you.

16/8/2006

If u like me…

If U like me…
Just as if am a tear,
Sleeping in ur latent eyes.
And if in turnover of life,
Somewhere, sometime … u cry,
I will roll down ur apple cheeks
and b lost in ur lips,
Mind u! U can never regain me…

If u like me…
And want to knw hw much,
Just streach ur lips,
And see hw wide it goes,
That much do I like u too…

If u like me…
And want to see me,
Just close your eyes,
And when the rush and dust settles down,
U can see me,
Yes I will b there, watching u…

If u like me…
And want to listen to me,
Just rush outside to the rain,
And listen to those musical drops,
You can hear me sing,
Yes I will b there, singing for u…

If u like me…
And want to feel me,
Walk into the sandy beach,
On a delightful desk,
And feel the breeze, hugging u,
Yes I will b there, embracing u…

I will b there watching u,
from where u cannot see me.

I will be there talking to u,
From where u can seldom listen to me,

I will be there touching u,
From where u can never feel me…

Urs and only urs…

23/6/2004

Nature’s Mistake

A mother’s voice calls out wild,
come back, come back my child.
her voice is meek with a rhythmic strain,
haunting waves of sadness, all in vain.
But the child, a mischievous child,
Has his ears deaf and vision mild.

Rising sun tells the story,
Past fury and the glory,
Gallant moon crawls through all night,
And sleeps along amidst day light.
Timid trees, meadows and the greenery,
All en bound by ur maternity.
Mother … u r beautiful,
With … life bountiful.

Ur mistake still haunts u…
One of ur sons has betrayed u,
He walks along challenging u,
Destroying blossoms anew,
He changes u at his pursue,
But u never sentence sue.

He is polluting u with fumes of death,
He is ruling u from head to depth.
U r put to struggle in depravity,
As he prowls along with cruelty.
Oh! Mother ur pious mind,
Confers him a chance to respire in ur rind.

Still u will have to witness
Death of ur son, who is restless,
He shall pinch himself off with anguish,
And hence, forever, perish.
This will b the price,
Of ur lone miss-deed, ur mistake,
U made him think,
U gave him brain
U made him survive,

Adapt, adapt and thrive…

12/2/2002