I have a crowd within me…
They speak, they sing…
They cry, they howl…
And I hear them all…
Silently, I do…
They kill my dreams...within my dreams…
They make my heart more prudent than my mind…
And I never realize what they mean to…
Sometimes… I hate silence…
Coz, my silence is too strident…
Its noisy... I can’t abide…
And they seldom obey me…
I tried, I tried, I tried…
I can’t conquer their kingdom…
They r growing deafening…
&
Am afraid… am killing myself…
15/04/2007
My thoughts, my dreams are all u…
For, I love spending time… knowing u
Irresponsible and absent minded … I am… I know…
For, I don’t have enough minds to be…
I await long hours, to spend a few minutes with you…
For, those seem far more prized to me…
I am incomplete… I like being…
For, I realize … it’s in u… my completeness…
Afflictions seem no more so…
For, it’s all ‘coz of u…
I am
For, I can hold your hands – tight – always…
And I can never deceive u…
For, I love u…
I relish being reckless and out of mind…
For, I know… u r mine…
06/04/2007
Those doused eyes…. Uneasy…
A miserable soul…. Thirsty for affection, care….
Those beliefs… traumatized …
Was I alone??.... Sometimes!!!
Existence … so restless…
Those moments seemed protracted …
Time, as if, was eroding away my life…
Was I alone??... Sometimes!!!
Chained, was I … in my own thoughts…
Broke … several times… n broken still more…
Reborn a thousand times... each broken dreams apiece…
Was I alone??... Sometimes!!!
Did all what others wanted me to do…
Cherished… giving more than what they expected from me…
And failed…. dearly... to understand… myself…
Was I alone??... Sometimes!!!
Wandering into unknown dark waters…
and … roads… closed and opened… kept roving…
Days and nights are my “factual” friends…
Was I alone??... Sometimes!!!
Life is too extensive… and there is a long way to go…
Tired legs are too early to have… and someone intimate… just virtual …
Hopefully, am not alone… always! I have myself… with me…
my reflection… my god… around me...
It’s just a substance of realization…
Wish… I could get through…
Alone??... Am I and am never!!!
15/2/2007
The distressed, desperate, sore human existance........ am I??
Cynical Chemistry, Meta Physics and a burst of thoughts........ am I??
The Flow of Mental Fluids, a walking potrait........ am I??
love, affection........am I??Peace Prosperity........am I??
Realizations........am I??Success and Failiures........am I??
Did I die a million times within myself........??
And the silver - lining...did i see........??
A Myth........ am I???A Mystry......... am I???
The Horizon........ am I??The Phoenix ........ am I???
The Past, the Present, the Future........ am I???
Life, death & soul ........ am I???
I Am... I Am... I Am...
28/12/2006
When divinity asked me…
What could be the greatest gift... I could ever give you???!
I jus whispered... u have already...
The greatest gift of all….
the gift of knowing you.
In troubled waters, in awful times…
Sad moments, grief, or even niggles,
When plans go dire..
Things don’t just turn out.
Around you in
In the air that surrounds you…
and in
I’ll b der!
And I’ll do my part…
The burdens are there to ease off…
Tears are there to be desiccated …,
Sorrows and pains… will condense
And… hope to c u persist cheerful … as yet!
In the end I would be happy
for am not… as indebted as I was…
It's a small worth to pay
for the gift of knowing you.
16/8/2006
If U like me…
Just as if am a tear,
Sleeping in
And if in turnover of life,
Somewhere, sometime … u cry,
I will roll down
and b lost in
Mind u! U can never regain me…
If u like me…
And want to knw hw much,
Just streach
And see hw wide it goes,
That much do I like u too…
If u like me…
And want to see me,
Just close your eyes,
And when the rush and dust settles down,
U can see me,
Yes I will b there, watching u…
If u like me…
And want to listen to me,
Just rush outside to the rain,
And listen to those musical drops,
You can hear me sing,
Yes I will b there, singing for u…
If u like me…
And want to feel me,
Walk into the sandy beach,
On a delightful desk,
And feel the breeze, hugging u,
Yes I will b there, embracing u…
I will b there watching u,
from where u cannot see me.
I will be there talking to u,
From where u can seldom listen to me,
I will be there touching u,
From where u can never feel me…
Urs and only urs…
23/6/2004
A mother’s voice calls out wild,
come back, come back my child.
her voice is meek with a rhythmic strain,
haunting waves of sadness, all in vain.
But the child, a mischievous child,
Has his ears deaf and vision mild.
Rising sun tells the story,
Past fury and the glory,
Gallant moon crawls through all night,
And sleeps along amidst day light.
Timid trees, meadows and the greenery,
All en bound by
Mother … u r beautiful,
With … life bountiful.
Ur
One of
He walks along challenging u,
Destroying blossoms anew,
He changes u at his pursue,
But u never sentence sue.
He is polluting u with fumes of death,
He is ruling u from head to depth.
U r put to struggle in depravity,
As he prowls along with cruelty.
Oh! Mother
Confers him a chance to respire in
Still u will have to witness
Death of
He shall pinch himself off with anguish,
And hence, forever, perish.
This will b the price,
Of
U made him think,
U gave him brain
U made him survive,
Adapt, adapt and thrive…
12/2/2002
